"Connecting to the 'No' within",
a meditation by Clay AD



Image description: There is a background with fuzzy textures on which you can repeatedly read the word "No". On top of this, the image of a face-down tree is superimposed.





Audio description and practical information

This meditation is best to do in a space where you can be comfortable and at ease, in anyway you'd like to position your body. You can do it in a room alone or with headphones, or outside with headphones on.

Duration: around 15 minutes.

The guided meditation is in English.




This mediation would like to meet the listener with where they are at, hopefully facilitating an experience that is accessible also to those of us who have difficulty saying "no" in our daily existence for whatever reason (trauma, structural oppression, people pleasing, etc), and finding embodied supports for us in this process.

Connecting to the No within’ is a guided meditation which attempts to bridge the listener and the confidence and clarity that many "no's" require. We move through first connecting to the body then to a moment of personal recent experience when we had the desire to say no but found it difficult, and finding where those catalyse in the body, then to larger social moments of saying no (to reject oppressive conditions, to push back against injustice, to protect others etc). This mediation would like to meet the listener with where they are at, hopefully facilitating an experience that is accessible also to those of us who have difficulty saying no in our daily existence for whatever reason (trauma, structural oppression, people pleasing, etc), and finding embodied supports for us in this process.

Clay AD was born in Indianapolis Indiana and now lives in Berlin where they are a somatic bodyworker, artist, writer and tarot reader. In their interdisciplinary practice they honour and explore illness, ecology, science fiction, transformation and the politics of care under capitalism -- by themselves, collectively and with their clients. They are a certified practitioner of the Pantarei Approach and their somatic work is informed by their background in improvisational movement, meditation and breath work. Their first novel, Metabolize, If Able is available through Arcadia Missa Press UK and was named a finalist in the 31st Lambda Literary Award for LGBTQ Sci-Fi, Fantasy and Horror. Their writing has been published by Pilot Press, Futures Journal, Hematopoiesis Press, and Monster House Press. They have led somatic and writing workshops at NGBK Berlin and Shedhalle Zurich, and read internationally including at the Institute for Contemporary Arts London. They received their BFA from the Cooper Union for Advancement of Art and Science in 2014.